HOME FOR SALE

CHAD AND I LISTED MY HOME FOR SALE YESTERDAY. IT IS GOING TO SEEM SO FUNNY TO SEE THE SIGN IM THE YARD, KIND OF SAD TOO. LOGAN LOVES THIS HOUSE AND HE FEELS SECURE HERE. CHAD AND I FEEL HAVING A HOME WE BOTH CHOOSE AND BUY WILL MAKE US FEEL MORE SECURE IN OUR RELATIONSHIP. A COUPLE WENT THROUGH ALREADY AND ARE CONTEMPLATING IT AND ANOTHER HOUSE. WE NEED TO GET PRE-APPROVED FOR A LOAN AND START LOOKING OURSELVES. I HAVE APPLIED FOR A POSITION AT A MEDICAL PRACTICE, I PRAYED AND GOD ANSWERED: TAKE A LEAP AND RELY ON HIM FOR COURAGE AND STRENGTH, WHATEVER HAPPENS , HAPPENS I TRUST IN HIM.

LABOR DAY

YOU KNOW YOU HAVE REACHED ADULTHOOD WHEN LABOR DAY IS FILLED WITH LABORING AROUND THE HOUSE TO MAKE IMPROVEMENTS, OH TO BE YOUNG AND HAVE NO WORRIES. MY HUSBAND CHAD AND I ARE FINALLY FINISHED WITH THE PROJECTS THE REALTOR TOLD US TO DO BEFORE PUTTING THE HOUSE ON THE MARKET. THANK YOU LORD! WE ARE TRUSTING GOD THAT IF IT IS IN HIS WILL FOR US TO MOVE THE HOUSE WILL SELL, IF NOT WE ARE CONTENT IN DOING MORE IMPROVEMENTS AND STAYING HERE.WE JUST REALLY WOULD LIKE A HOUSE WE BOTH PICK OUT AND DOESN'T HAVE OLD MEMORIES OF BAD PAST RELATIONSHIPS FOR ME. CHAD IS DEFINITELY DOING HIS PART IN MAKING WONDERFUL NEW MEMORIES FOR ME THOUGH, I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE HIM AS MY HUSBAND! LOGAN IS FIGHTING TH FLU AND I HOPE HE IS BETTER BY 2MORROW SO HE CAN GO TO SCHOOL. TIME WILL TELL, GOD PLEASE HELP HIM WITH THIS SICKNESS. I STILL HAVE RESERVATIONS ABOUT MY JOB AND I AM PRAYING THAT GOD OPENS SOME DOORS FOR ME AND SHOWS ME WHERE I SHOULD BE. GOTTA GO CHAD HAS TO GET UP FOR WORK, DREADED MIDNIGHTS!

I'M BACK

I'M BACK, I HAVE NO EXCUSE FOR NOT BLOGGING, ALOT HAS CHANGED IN MY LIFE THOUGH. I RECENTLY GOT MARRIED TO A WONDERFUL MAN ON JULY 18TH, HE IS AN AWESOME HUSBAND AND GREAT STEPFATHER. I AM CURRENTLY STRUGGLING IN MY SPIRITUAL LIFE, BUT JUST REALIZING IT IS A BLESSING IN ITSELF. I HAD A RECENT RELAPSE WITH MY EATING DISORDER BUT WITH GOD'S STRENGTH I AM BACK ON TRACK AND RELYING ON HIM FOR MY STRENGTH.

TESTED

WELL GOD HAS TESTED ME YET AGAIN, I STEPPED OUT OF OHIO AND INTO THE BIG CITY OF NEW YORK. IT WAS JUST A THREE DAY BUS TOUR WITH A FRIEND I HAVE KNOWN FOR 17 YEARS AND NEVER HAD LUNCH WITH OR EVEN TALKED TO OUTSIDE OF HER WORKPLACE.( SHE WORKS AT THE BANK I GO TO EVERYDAY AS A TELLER) ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO SHE JOKINGLY ASKED ME TO GO TO NEW YORK CITY WITH HER BECAUSE WE BOTH HAD COMMENTED ON WANTING TO ALWAYS GO THERE.
WELL 4 MONTHS LATER THERE WE WERE ON THE BUS, BOTH SCARED TO DEATH TO LEAVE OUR LITTLE BOYS AND VENTURE INTO THE BIG CITY. I SUFFER FROM ANXIETY ATTACKS AND SO DOES SHE GOING PLACES UNFAMILIAR TO ME IS REALLY STRESSFUL AND ON TOP OF THAT I WAS ALONE AWAY FROM MY LOVED ONES. WELL I MADE IT BUT ONLY WITH GOD'S HELP, DURING THE BROADWAY PLAY WICKED AFTER SPRINTING THROUGH TIMES SQUARE AT RUSH HOUR AND NEARLY MISSING THE PLAY, THE ANXIETY ATTACK CAME ON, RACING HEART, SWEATY PALMS, HEADACHE,
FEELING LIKE I WAS ABOUT TO PASS OUT, I LOWERED MY HEAD IN THE GERSHWIN THEATRE AND PRAYED TO MY GOD , THAT I KNEW HE WAS WITH ME AND HE WOULD PULL ME THROUGH SO I WOULD NOT MISS THE EXPERIENCE OF A LIFETIME, AFTER ABOUT 20 MINUTES OF BEING ENGAGED IN PRAYER , I RAISED MY HEAD AND ENJOYED THE BROADWAY PLAY. ALL I CAN SAY IS THANK-YOU GOD FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE TO PULL ME THROUGH A YEAR AGO IF I WOULD HAVE WENT TO NEW YORK AND DID NOT KNOW OF YOUR GRACE I WOULD HAVE NEVER MADE IT IN NEW YORK CITY, BUT BECAUSE OF YOU I HAD THE EXPERIENCE OF A LIFETIME AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I GREW IN MY FAITH!!!!!!!!

LESSON LEARNED

AS I PROMISED MY BLOG WAS TO BE ABOUT MY JOURNEY KNOWING GOD AND APPLY IT TO DAILY LIFE, TODAY I LEARNED A GREAT LESSON FROM GOD --- TO NOT PROCRASTINATE IT WILL GET YOU IN THE END, WELL AS YOU KNOW I RUN MY OWN BUSINESS, IT HAS BEEN IN MY FAMILY FOR 30 YEARS, THE COMPUTER HAS BEEN GOING SLOW AND ACTING UP BUT INSTEAD OF TAKING CARE OF IT I LET IT GO , AND LOW AND BEHOLD IT CRASHED TONIGHT , WHILE I HAD ABOUT 40 CUSTOMERS THAT I COULDN'T HELP BECAUSE MY COMPUTER WAS DOWN.TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT DELL IS SENDING ME A NEW COMPUTER IN ABOUT 5 DAYS , SO I ASKED MYSELF WHAT AM I GOING TO DO FOR THE NEXT 5 DAYS WITHOUT MY COMPUTER, SO I PRAYED AND ASKED GOD FOR A SECOND CHANCE, IT WENT SOMETHING LIKE THIS_________ DEAR GOD, PLEASE LET THE COMPUTER BOOT UP ONE MORE TIME I PROMISE TO BE FAITHFUL TO YOU AND TO NEVER PROCRASTINATE AGAIN, I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON . GUESS WHAT ------ THE COMPUTER IS WORKING, I WAITED ON MY CUSTOMERS AND I KNOW AS LONG AS I AM FAITHFUL TO THE GOOD LORD , THAT COMPUTER WILL RUN UNTIL THE NEW ONE REACHES MY DOORSTEP. THANK-YOU GOD

I GOT A BLOG

I HAVE DECIDED TO START BLOGGING MY JOURNEY OF HOW I APPLY GOD'S WORD TO MY EVERYDAY LIFE. I COMMITTED MYSELF TO CHRIST AT THE AGE OF 30, AND CANNOT COMPREHEND HOW I MADE IT THROUGH 30 YEARS WITHOUT KNOWING GOD AND HIS GRACE. I STILL STRUGGLE EVERYDAY, BUT KNOWING GOD LOVES AND CARES FOR ME MAKES IT SO MUCH SWEETER. I SAID GOODBYE TODAY TO A DEAR FRIEND WHO LOST HER BATTLE WITH CANCER, BY GOD'S GRACE I INTRODUCED HER TO CHRIST AND I KNOW SHE IS IN PEACE AND NO LONGER SUFFERING. ( WENDY I LOVE AND WILL MISS YOU DEARLY). IF I WOULD HAVE KNOWN CHRIST AT AN EARLIER AGE, MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH DIFFERENT, BUT I KNOW GOD HAS HIS PLAN FOR MY LIFE AND I STRIVE EVERYDAY TO SEEK HIS WILL FOR ME. BECAUSE I SUFFERED TWO DIVORCES AND AN EATING DISORDER I CAME TO KNOW CHRIST ( MY MOM ALWAYS SAID I DO EVERYTHING THE HARD WAY) BUT THAT'S WHAT IT TOOK GOD TO GET MY ATTENTION, KNOWING I CAN'T KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER WITHOUT HIS HELP. I HOPE BLOGGING WILL HELP ME SEE GOD'S GRACE IN EVERYTHING I DO, PLEASE IF YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS TO HELP ME SEEK GOD'S WILL FOR MY LIFE, LET ME KNOW.